I came across a really great blog by some lovely person named Evelyn yesterday, and it gave me a boost to deal with some of the stuff I've just been avoiding and really set intentions forward for (deep breath) the future.
It's just that I was allowing myself to have this bleak outlook of the future. Ironic, sunshine daily right? I was just sinking and it's definitely a major impact of being far from my only home for 20 years, my family, my friends. I felt disconnected from the Source.
So, I woke up yesterday and went outside for a walk and looked and the sky and started talking, first to the sky and then to myself. I need to get used to being my own best friend. Sounds crazy but I am so happy living for the people in my life that I don't realize I'm not planning anything for myself. I'm too hesitant to think it will work out after opportunities that I have missed, left in the past.
Of course, there it is. IN THE PAST. I just need to let it go.
Thankfully, I realize I have the support of a great guy that wants me to just find my way for me. I am going to really make the conscious effort to show him he's great.
I am happy to say that I actually picked myself 3 Power Words for 2011. Because my birthday is coming up in this lovely April that's approaching, I'm considering them applying to the year according to my life. This is me getting a head start.
with myself, with my partner
with honesty and patience and realizing that
if there is something wrong, we need to be willing to root around until its fixed
I must search for this
what inspires me? for myself, because I want it..
this year will be about seeking this out
to myself, to everyone around me
accepting and receiving it from the Univers, each day in a million possible ways
So, today is a great day. I am looking forward to the future. One day at a time ...